Living From Love
One day I was in prayer in my prayer closet. I had been seeking God and crying out for understanding of what it means to be in the Father’s heart. People kept talking about aligning with the Father's heart, resting in the Father's heart and receiving from the Father’s heart. I didn’t know how to connect to His heart and I didn’t know why. As I was seeking God suddenly I saw a vision of a beautiful cabin in the woods. It was a
cabin like a Thomas Kinkade painting. Warm and welcoming. A soft golden glow from the windows. In the vision I was outside of the cabin. It was a dark, cold forest. I could sense wild animals prowling about. I couldn’t see what was in the darkness. But as I
drew closer the door of the cabin opened to me. I stepped in. It was warm and welcoming. There was a chair for me in front of the fire. I was handed a cup of warm soup to drink. A warm blanket was wrapped around my shoulders. Everything about that cabin felt like I was home. Like I belonged. Like He had been waiting and preparing for me to come sit with Him. This, He said, is My heart.
God saw me and welcomed me. He had been welcoming me all along. I didn’t believe I was welcome. I lived in fear of getting it wrong, making Him mad, and feeling undeserving of Him. Afraid to ask. Afraid to linger. Afraid to get close and afraid to let Him get close. I kept Him at a safe distance and kept others there too. I wasn’t living in alignment with my design. I wasn't living from the Father's heart. I was
living from the outside.
I was living from fear of "what if..."
Because I was living from fear, my decisions came from there.
I was living from fear of "what if..."
Because I was living from fear, my decisions came from there.
- Fear of rejection
- Fear of man
- Fear of getting it wrong
- Fear of being asked to do something I didn't know how to do
- Fear of not being good enough
Each of these fears were empowered by lies I believed about myself. When I began my inner healing journey the lies about myself began to be broken and I began to know my true self for the first time.
Where we have these lies operating, and the habits that we use to carry them out, we are presenting a false identity to the world and to God.
- We may not even know we are doing it because we have been doing it so long.
- The false identity can feel real because we do not know our real one.
- The false identity seems to protect us, but it keeps us at a distance from
the Father, outside His heart.
We must recognize and break agreement with these lies to be able to take God at His word, to believe what He is saying to us. Through inner healing we can restore trust in Him, and trust in ourselves, to believe that we are who HE says we are. To really know who we are and our value, we must spend time daily receiving that from The Father’s heart, not from the outside world.
We must build a relationship with Him by spending time with Him, lingering in His presence, asking questions and waiting for answers.
Authenticity and vulnerability are required to have a real relationship, one that establishes a bridge of trust you can visit freely and often.
If we do not have an authentic relationship with Him, if we do not know Him for who He really is, and know who we are as designed by Him, we will misinterpret His Words and misrepresent Him to the world.
I pray this New Year is one of miracles. I pray you experience more of HIs love for you and receive greater understanding of the Father's heart for you. Let's press into Him, living more from the Father's heart and less from the world.
You are Loved!
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